I didn't like the idea of working in pilch

So i'm working in curry's instead.

whooooooop =) 

I got a job

In Pilch

Can you imagine me selling sports gear?

No, me either.

=s 

Right.

1. I have too much work for myself to physically complete in the time I need to

2. I am not going to get into the university that I want to, because 1. means that I don't have the time to prepare for the interview.

3. I don't have a job. And I just screwed round the only people that gave me an interview by having to reschedule it - so I probably wont get that one either.

4. No job means no money. No money means no going out. But mainly, no money means that i'm fucked for any upcoming birthdays and for Christmas.

5. I don't have money for cigarettes or illicit substances. My life will soon end.

6. I am fucking starving hungry.

[fin] 

fucking

stupid

ungrateful

bitch.

why do I bother? 

Cambridge application form is DONE

Parently are on HOLIDAY

Do have a fair bit of work to do but i reeeeally cannae be assed lol

Meh.

Sio is coming round later for some hardcore giley partying yeeeeahhhhh

Whoop Whoop

x 

I'm trying to write my cambridge application form. Its so difficult.  It takes all i've got to stop me from writing

"For the love of GOD, you are not going to find anyone that wants this more than I do!  This course is simply INTEGRAL to my very EXISTENCE! You simply could never even imagine in your wildest dreams how crucial this course is to my overall wellbeing! I want it with every fibre of my being! PLEASE GOD LET ME IN!!!" 

I've found that coherently, articulately and eloquently explaining all the individual reasons that they should let me in takes away from the overall passion that i'm trying to put across. and it's doing my head in.

I can't write this. 

Coolest guy ever.
 

For real; My mum loses her temper so quickly, and she doesn't mean to she just takes things offensively and personally and gets defensive real quick. And I can't deal with her at all cos i'm exactly the same, so we just end up getting into huge arguments.  But my dad is so calm and laid back that even when my mums getting really stroppy, he just ... Doesn't rise to the bait.

Its actually amazing. Like... Kicking a dog that'll never bite back. Actually, that sounds pretty bad... I do in a way feel sorry for him for having to put up with it. But seriously, i've never met such a calm and patient person in my life.

Heres to my dad; awesome awesome guy. 

my previous blog? pointless. would delete it but I like the lyrics.

 today; pointless.
 yesterday? Pointless.
 my life atm? Pointless.

I'm so negative atm. Its really super mega lame. I have no energy, no drive... no... Ooomph. Damnit, i used to be so ... Up for anyhting, rought & ready, random, spontaneous, positive.... Blergh... Everythings kinda just going downhill. 

I don't even know what i'm talking about. I can't even speak.

bleeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrgh 

When you hear my voice scream, "Collide!"
Know that all I could ever mean was you and I.

You'd cut off all your fingers just for an excuse not to call me.

poetry is fun.

TODAY! AGH! WHOOOO!

 I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS ACTUALLY FINALLY HERE! WHEEE! SO EXCITED!