The story of a youngmummy doing her best to raise two baby girls...
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Outta here...
I am sad to say it but this will be my last post. I am leaving 20six. I have been getting so much spam (even with the anti-spam filter) and I just can not figure out how to get my layout the way I want it. I also hate the way the comments can not be tracked. Anyways, my time here has been great! Hopefully I will see some of you over at my new site http://www.platform27.co.uk/Youngmum. Bye bye!! |
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NOT HAPPY!!!
Since the change over the amount of SPAM I have been getting is absolutley ridiculous. Every day I have loads of it and I have to manually go through each entry and delete it. (Today alone I had 10 spam comments on my blogs). I really don't need comments like "Hot gay porn" left on posts about my kids!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really didn't want to leave 20six but I guess I don't have much choice. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG CURRENT MOOD: VERY MAD |
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Katie's story...
* I have used a fake name for the girl in this story because I don't know if her family would want me to post her real name * Around the middle of December 2003 Katie got a cold. She was 11 at the time and her family didn't think anything of it. It was winter in Canada after all and everyone has their share of colds. When a week passed and it didn't go away her parents took her to the doctor who immediatly diagnosed her with a sinus infection and sent her on her way with a mild prescription. Christmas day Katie woke up filled with the excitment every child feels on Christmas day but in an instant all the excitment of Christmas faded and horror filled her mind. Katie couldn't see. She screamed for her mom and dad who tried to reassure her that everything was fine but she could not see them or anything else around her. They rushed her to the local childrens hospital and some tests were done. The whole time poor 11 year old Katie sat terrified that she would never see again. After some time passed the doctors called her parents into a little room and in a few words changed their lives forever. The doctor told them that they found two very large and in-operable tumors. One on Katie's nose and one behind her eye which was causing the blindness. The only thing they could do was start radiation and chemo therapy and hope the tumors shurnk enough to give her her sight back. Chemo started immediatly. The tumors shrunk and Katie got sight back in one eye but the doctors told her vision would never return to her other eye. They felt confident that they may be able to clear the tumors compleltly and send her into remmision. Meanwhile, the chemo took an awful toll on her body. She went down to skin and bones. Her once vibrant youthfull eyes became dark and hallow looking. She lost all of her beacutiful thick blonde hair and she stoped eating because food had lost its taste. 11 months to the day she was diagnosed Katie was told she was in remission. "Cancer free" Her hair started to grow back, she didn't look quite so pale and she even had plans to start back to school. That december she was asked what she wanted for Christmas. She replied with " I just want to be cancer free". 3 months later the cancer came back. Back in spots on her lungs and back. Round two of chemo began and for several long months she endured the pukeing, the bleeding noses, the loss of appetite. She even had a bone marrow transplant and had 3 ribs removed because there was cancer on them. Through all of this she was strong. But her body couldn't take any more and they had to stop the chemo. The doctors told her that her body would never be able to handle chemo again but that they thought they had cleared up all the spots they had found. However, if her cancer returned there would be nothing they could do. As Christmas aproached again I asked her myself what she wanted, she told me she "wanted all of her friends at sick kids to be able to be with their families for the holidays". I told her with tears in my eyes that, that was the best Christmast wish I had ever heard and that she was the most mature 13 year old I had ever met. Three weeks ago Katie started complaining about a sore leg. I asked her mom what she thought about it and she told me she was too scared to consider the possiblity and that she hoped it was growing pains. The brought her back to sick kids hospital and did a scan. The cancer is back in three more spots. It's the begining of the end. The doctors once again sat them all in a little room and explained that Katie will never again be cancer free and that chemo will not cure her. However if she wants to prolong her life some they can attempt it. She immediatly said she wants the chemo. Later her mom asked her why she would want to go through that again if she knows it wont save her life. Katie told her she is affraid to die. Her mom assured her that everyone is afraid of death because it is the unknown but that she is going to a better place. Katie made preperation for Heaven a while back and she will be with her Lord when she does die. I asked her mom how she is holding up and she told me that she is just taking it day by day and that she sometimes wonders why God would do this to them but than realizes that their IS a reason and that she can't get bitter. She also told me that Katie has now told her she is no longer afraid to die and that she is fine with it. How can a 13 year old girl be fine with it? CURRENT MOOD: Heartbroken |
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"So?"
Me: "Ella please don't put that dolly on top of Allie" A few seconds pass....Allie starts crying Ella: "oh, mommy addie trying" (ie crying) Can you belive these are the conversations I have with my one and half year old? And I swear to you that not one word of that is stretched. Just ask Mylozmom she can vouch for me. I am dealing with the smartest, cheekiest 19 month old out their. Heaven help me.... |
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Bites and bites
I had a great weekend. Friday night I went to diner with the ever lovely Mylozmom. She is so freaking cute. She looks fantastic and is glowing from ear to ear. We had a blast catching up and in two hours we solved all the worlds problems... now if they would just let us rule the world all would be well Hubby took the girls for me. He is such a great dad and a pretty darn good husband too. How many dad's would agree to take there 19 month old and *2 1/2 month old* for the night without even hesitating? *the babe is still strictly breast fed* Me: "I was thinking of maybe going out for diner with MM sometime soon" What a great guy hu?.. I don't think I've ever posted a pic of him have I? Pretty cute hu? (that's Allie he's cuddling) So I was reading one of Mr.hoverfrogs posts today and he mentioned how he is sticking this out but how 20six has lost a sense of community (thats not the exact words but that was the jist of it). And I have to agree. I have lost most of my pals to P27 and it is getting harder and harder to keep track of everyone. The comment thing is really a pain. I wish we could track comments on other posts.. but than again most are on other sites so it wouldn't do much good. I don't know what to do. Anyways, here is a pic of the babe that I thought was just precious
It was taken just last weekend.
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Made me think...
I find my self in deep thought tonight..... I watched something on t.v tonight and the guy looked at his wife and asked her: "If you wildest dream came true, would I be in it?" I don't know why but I can not get that out of my head.... who would I want to be in my wildest dream? Who would I include and who would I leave out.. would something drastic like money change who I am? ... All of this came from a dumb t.v show that really was not that good at all but regardless it has caused me to think. So how about all of you... what is your wildest dream and who would be in it?
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Blah...
Yuck, ouch, sneeze, yawn.... That's how I feel today. My stomach feels yucky, my head hurts, my allergies are so bad that I have not stopped sneezing for 2 days now and I am positive that the girls have tag teamed against me to ensure that I NEVVER sleep AGAIN. NEVER EVER EVER until they move out of the house. Allie gets up at 5am every day. As soon as the sun sets she is awake. She normally stays awake till about 7:30 or 8 and than goes back to sleep for a very long nap.. well of course by that time Ella's little peepers open and she's ready to go. Meaning my day starts at 5am (and Allie still gets up in the night, so I am averaging about 3 hours sleep a night). Well this morning I thought I had it made, Ella went to be late last night meaning she would sleep in and when Allie woke up at 5 I fed her and put her in her swing and she fell rite back to sleep YAY YAY YAY...... *enter deep sigh here* Ella woke up shortly after........ Arg!!!!!!!!!!! On a completley different topic did any of you hear about the big terrorist take down in Ontario this past weekend?? A terrorist cell of 17 people was taken down not far from where I live. I fear for my children... if they found this group likely there is more rite? |
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